Just don't

Why did you  pretend to care,
When you really don't
Or even If you did,
That's probably in the past now. 

Why did you make me fall for you
Then start acting weird
I was totally trying
Not to get hooked
On your charm, but you fooled me

Just leave me be
I told you, you refused,
What do you want from me please ?
To ruin me ?
The part in me  that loves
Is somewhat ruined
There's nothing left to destroy

So
Please , please , leave me be
I just want the pressure on my chest
To reduce
I want to be able to sleep
Without thinking thrice .
You made me fall a little
I'm not falling any further
Go with your charms
Go woo another girl.

Just don't try to ruin me further
I can't take anymore instabilility

           

One for you

You were too nice
Very rare these days
I was a little uncomfy
But I just decided to keep calm
And accept the kind gesture

First few days were wonderful ,
You know the right words to blurt out
You know how to act
Maybe something happened on the way
Its not even up to three weeks
And you've started acting like the rest
For a second, I thought you were different
I'm sorry for being wrong .

Why me ?

I spoke with him,
A week ago ,
His Voice so unstable,
Me, so hasty to hang up,
But , before I could
Memory brought back
The day he almost tore
Me apart ,
The day every inch
Of my body
Was trapped beneath his lust .

That day , my whole body
Trembled against your large chest
As you forced my body to respond
To you sexual desires ,
My body begged for you to stop
But you were over whelmed by
Your actions , you didn't know
I was hurting.

I dunno how I got saved from
Your monstrous grip but I did,
I wonder how you feel when
You see me walk past
I mean, I was barely even a teen
I guess you just wanted to see how
It felt to pluck a beautiful flower ,
Glad you didn't have the chance .

Just a crack

Have you ever met someone that makes you feel like a princess?
I know I intentionally didn't say queen .
If you have , you'll understand why this writeup.

Here it goes :
You always knew him, he always liked you.
But you just felt pretty neutral about him ,
In your mind , he is the nicest and most decent guy ever .
You guys have hung out a couple times ,
But with restrictions , distance and curfew .
Then , finally you have the time to hang out well ,
No curfew , same location , barely any restrictions
And you try to hold you firmly built walls
But he's to sweet for that
He's not having any of that

Then there appears a crack on
The wall
And a little pint of vulnerability
Creeps in ,
And you just dunno how
To handle even the slightest emotions again
Because you locked them out
For your own safety
So you're stuck in the sea
Of vulnerability.