DON’T DO IT, HOLD ON.

I was in a very dark place

I have thought about using pills

To end it all

I have wallowed in self-pity

For days and days

Listening to one song,

And letting my mind wander

Into dark places.

At that point,

It felt like the whole world

Was against me ‘

My routine was go for classes

Come home and stay in my dark room

Think about sad things

Till I finally fall asleep

There came a time

I thought about the pills,

They seemed like a better option

Than subjecting myself to endless

Torture of criticism

And shouts of how I failed

And how I would have

Been in a better place.

Darkness became my solace

The radio station that broadcasted

Sad stories in the midnight became

My only companion

Light was like the antagonist

Of my soul,

And I died bit by bit

Inside.        

I began to remember

Everybody that hurt me

I thought of just going to the shores of

A beach, to watch the waves dance in the

Moonlight .

To just take a walk and drown myself

In my tears and sorrow.

Everybody kept saying,

Being sad will not help you,

Better pick your books and read

But they didn’t understand

They didn’t get it,

That my soul was tired of the noise

And was just about ready to give up.

But I pulled through,

I don’t know how,

But I did

One day I decided to beat depression

I decided to let go of its ugly hand

I decided to refrain from its embrace.

It was then, I was able to overcome

It was then, I decided to pick up

Where it left me and do better for

Myself.

So don’t do it, please don’t,

Don’t pull that trigger,

Don’t tie that rope,

Don’t swallow those drugs,

Because the light at the end of the tunnel,

Is closer than you think.

EKAB TAKON

25/6/2017

10:54AM